About That Lack of Posts. Meniere's? "The Best Laid Plans" As the Saying Goes.

I woke up dizzy Monday. Dizzy, not vertiginous. With vertigo, the world spins. Or rather, with rotational vertigo, the world spins, generally in a horizontal direction (don't ask me which way, because my brain will lock up) I took a bunch of drugs trying to make it better. Nothing made it better. Dizziness is (as I've said elsewhere) the most common complaint that doctors hear. It means completely different things to different people. This dizziness is a feeling of being on the verge of falling/fainting, pretty much with every step.

Tuesday I woke up, dizzy again. This time dizzy and with chest congestion. I had taken the CPAP mask off to answer the phone, and simply neglected to put it back on at about 8 am (trying to schedule appointments with mundanes means being clear and attempting to be coherent at 8 am when they return calls) so when I finally got out of bed at noon, I had a nice wheeze going and a tickle in the middle of my chest. Needless to say, I took a round of allergy drugs and my regular daily medications, put the mask back on and went back to sleep.

When I woke back up again, the tickle was gone, the dizziness was lessened and I wondered about the cause of the dizziness since the mask filters all my breathing air. I tried wearing a particulate mask around the house for awhile and that seemed to help, but then I had to talk on Discord for the guild raid that night, and the tickle and congestion returned.

Funny thing is, I can stick my finger in my left ear and trigger the inside out vision for a brief second or two. It makes the dizziness much worse, to the point of almost blacking out. The right ear, even though I have bilateral (both ears) Meniere's, does nothing to my equilibrium. That is a puzzle.

Allergies? Barometric pressure? Meniere's flaring up? I don't think it's the latter because the dizziness is wrong. I've already gone to the ENT once this month, so I'm visiting the GP today to see if it's something he can figure out. If not it's back to the ENT for another needle in the ear and the nasty taste of drugs in the back of my throat for two weeks. Fun. Fun. Fun.

...I mention all of this because I decided that this week was the week to try communicating with people, and I can tell that my writing is less than coherent. I'm hoping the above was coherent. Who knows? I won't for at least a week. Also, I'm in the middle of reorganizing my website and my blog, as well as revisiting the wisdom of my presence on several social platforms and I will be leaving more than one of them, permanently. So I'm largely incommunicado and unwilling to compose text in my normal fashion because that has lead to a lot of time wasted trying to recover lost work when things go sideways. (see my last post) and what little conversation I am required to engage in is probably incoherent to at least one side of the conversation. Maybe even both. I'd really like to get away from the problems that started back in mid-August. This is getting old. Really old.



11/8/18 - The spell finally seems to be passing, but the complete lack of change in the body politic of Texas has me in such a funk that I doubt I'll be writing much of anything positive for awhile still. I have a few cutting polemics in mind, but the better angels of my nature may keep me from ever publishing them here. On the other hand, I'm about to go off on relatives on Facebook again, so the inner troll may also get access to the keyboard here. Stay tuned. 

First things first. Get an editor that won't eat my drafts while I'm composing. When I get that all worked out, I will certainly write about that process. Writing about it is part of the process.

The CTRL-Z Blogger Hole

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I've run across this ctrl-z bug a few times in the Blogger interface and it's about to drive me nuts. The first time I noticed it I was working on an article that I had published previously, an article that still had some cludgy wording in it I wanted fixed, and I wanted to add a bit of HTML zing! to the post. I had it open in the blogger edit interface, the same old Blogger interface that has been the Blogger interface since the beginning of the world wide web if not the beginning of time as we know it. A white and grey interface with orange buttons? The one that has a toggle in the upper left corner that says "Compose" on one button and "HTML" on the other? Two different shades of grey? You know the one I'm talking about. I had messed up some code I had entered under the "HTML" setting, and after checking the results in "Compose" I hit ctrl-z to undo the change, and the entire post I was editing simply disappeared!

Luckily I could just back out and start over re-editing. It was a pain but at least I could access the original post. This error has happened a few times since then. Every time it has happened, I have had a version of the post that I could go back to, luckily. A frustrating but recoverable error. Until this time.

Today I was working in a test post that I keep hanging around to save snippets of code in, handily named test post. I had just done some tweaking on some code in the HTML interface. I didn't like the way it looked in the Compose interface, and I stupidly did the same thing again. I can clearly remember thinking "where was that error?" right before discovering the error again. However, this time I had no version to go back to because test post had never been published for more than a few minutes, and since it was currently a draft post the blogger interface helpfully over-wrote my test post, with all those years of HTML coding snippets saved just for this reason, so that I wouldn't lose them, and it over-wrote that long, ugly mess with a fresh, new, blank post it had created when I hit ctrl-z.

Funny? It did once. Does again
If I had been thinking at the time I might have stopped everything and gone looking. I mean, I know there is an excellent article (from 2009) on recovering deleted posts over on The Original Blogger Tips and Tricks. I first ran across his five points for recovering deleted blog posts last year when the mobile Blogger app helpfully overwrote a published post I just happened to have created in the mobile interface before completing it later on the desktop. When I reopened the mobile version to do what I saw as some quick editing, it opened the stored version of the earlier post, and then wrote that clearly unfinished, earlier work over the published, significantly longer, one. Suggestion four from his list look for a cached version worked like a charm on that occasion, and I was able to just pretend the entire screaming-rage-fit had never happened.

It has views to prove it.

Suggestion number three, go back to a previous version in the same window might have been helpful [was not helpful] had I not [even though I didn't] rage-quit the window in frustration [this time.] just before [There is no use] going to the blogger forums to complain about the fact that ctrl-z still deletes everything on screen in the edit interface[.] and being helpfully reminded of [T]he Tips and Tricks post by the first thread that mentioned ctrl-z. will not remedy the problem with [ctrl-z] deleted drafts[ and there isn't anything that other users can say or do that will make me feel less stupid or bring the wasted hours of work back.]

This is an old, old interface error. I know it's an old and common complaint, because there is a near-endless string of threads on the blogger forum that documents just how old and frustrating this error is. Just enter ctrl-z into the forum search window, and look at all the people who have the same problem, with no good resolution to be offered to them other than to be lectured to about backing up your data. [This is the only viable solution for accidentally deleting drafts aside from not editing drafts in the edit window within the blogger interface. This may seem counterintuitive, but, if you are editing anywhere else in the Google, Apple or Microsoft universe, drafts don't just magically disappear when you try to undo. There is almost always a copy of your most recent work stored in memory somewhere. Until Google and/or Blogger institute a recycle bin or some other saving system that doesn't overwrite your latest work upon leaving the interface, this error will have the catastrophic effect is has on unpublished drafts.]

[I think I've found out what is causing this problem, but again, the only way to correct it is to reprogram the drafts interface in such a way as to see drafts as not being completely transient temporary files. I have another long draft that I've been working on for about a decade now. I opened it to check if I had saved notes to incorporate in the draft, and seeing that I hadn't; I created a new draft in another window, copied and pasted the notes and saved that new draft. Having not made any changes to the original draft article I deemed it unchanged and told blogger not to save changes. This is the action that gives the location of the error away. I had toggled over to the HTML editor! When I flipped back to Compose, blogger saw that as a completely new file, never in existence before I toggled back to Compose. When I told it not to save changes, it abandoned the file exactly as if I had never wrote and rewrote and compiled and rewrote and recompiled and etcetera, etcetera ad nauseum. New file discarded.

Silly me, I go back to the other drafts tab and close the new file I had created today. It doesn't prompt me to save. It autosaved already. Data preserved. Hmm, that's interesting. The search terms that turned up the other file now show the new file is the only one with those terms in it. Surely the interface didn't...? Yep. It did. The blogger interface deleted ten years worth of angst in a microsecond because the file, as far as the interface was concerned, hadn't existed until it recompiled the HTML into the WYSIWYG display file. This behavior would be what you would expect if the key combination CTRL-Z were pressed on a new file. There's only one action to undo. Creation of the file. The WYSIWYG display file is promptly cleared with CTRL-Z when you return to the Compose screen because writing that file was the only action performed. Not allowing the new file to be saved before exiting the editing interface means that the file the interface just created, even though it was a ten year old file before you opened it, is abandoned today. File deleted. Programming error discovered. Will Google/Blogger ever fix it? I'm not screaming mad about it this time because having been burned before I had started making backups. The file is in the backup I made after editing it the last time. At least, I hope it was the last time. Fingers crossed?]

Yes, we understand. We are all but children in the eyes of the internet gods who never commit an error. We are so sorry to have to point this out but sometimes shit just happens. Sometimes you do something that you know is wrong at exactly the instant you do it, but you somehow still do it anyway. We children would really like known bugs to be fixed when they are brought to the attention of the for-profit programmers who work in the giant corporations that can't help but run our flawed, childlike world. If you aren't going to fix your errors, why the hell should the rest of us be any different? Why the hell are we relying on you when we could write code at least as well as you do, and do it in our own time? How many years does it take to fix an obvious flaw like ctrl-z blanks the edit window? I'm certain I could duplicate blogger's interface in less than a decade, and I really don't have to since I could install Wordpress on my own website and learn about all the bugs that are in that interface, just for a nice change of pace.

At least if I'm paying Wordpress I'm no longer the product being sold, but the customer being served. Food for thought.

It just happened again. FFS, Google!?! Blogger!?! Wake the fuck up and fix your shit! 10/27/2018 error discovered! Blogger is still broken!

Aether, Ether, Higgs?

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“Aethers were invented for the planets to swim in, to constitute electric atmospheres and magnetic effluvia, to convey sensations from one part of our bodies to another, and so on, until all space had been filled three or four times over with aethers … The only aether which has survived is that which was invented by Huygens to explain the propagation of light.” - James Clerk Maxwell 1878, Encyclopedia Britannica
The image at right comes from the SGU on Facebook, their Facebook status referencing an article in Popular Mechanics. The article details the experiment that proved that alchemical aether didn't exist back in 1887. This isn't the first time that the SGU and its host Dr. Steve Novella have ridiculed the notion of aether as a substance that permeates all matter and gives it definition. What I find interesting is that scientific people, people like the brothers Novella, recently celebrated the discovery of the Higgs boson.

Particle physicists in particular were thrilled that they finally discovered the Higgs, the final piece of the puzzle that completes the standard model of particle physics (and if you have a grasp of what that is, you are probably doing better than I am right now) they now have all the particles that represent the forces and parts of nature that were theorized centuries ago. Except that they don't have a complete explanation of the forces of nature. Science can't explain gravity or point to the particle that carries that force, and it can't explain quite a few other things that are pretty important to the functioning of the universe. Things like dark matter and dark energy. So they don't really know as much as they like to pretend they are certain of. But that is beside the point of this article.

Particle physicists and the skeptics on the SGU both accept that there is a thing called a Higgs field, a thing related to the Higgs boson I mentioned previously. The Higgs field, a thing that permeates and defines all of the physical world that we can see around us. They simply refuse to equate this field with aether. This is a discussion that has been aired on the SGU several times now. I can almost recite it by rote having listened to all of the nearly 700 episodes of the Skeptics Guide to the Universe. I've got the argument in my head. It won't go away.

To put it bluntly, for the purposes of discrediting alchemy, proving that alchemical aether was a delusion makes this particular experiment important in the annals of history. Alchemy is bullshit unless you are playing Dungeons and Dragons or World of Warcraft, in which case you can do magic all you want, because it isn't real. But in the real world alchemy is bullshit. This experiment proved that fact without a doubt.

However I fail to see the distinction between the Higgs field and the primordial notion of aether. Does it not permeate everything that exists? Does it not even exist in a vacuum? Does it not define all matter as we know it? How many other things are there out there that we don't know about that enable existence as we know it? One? A thousand? We don't know that, either. How about we admit we don't know things? It really doesn't hurt that much to admit it.
"Relativity actually says nothing about the existence or nonexistence of matter pervading the universe, only that any such matter must have relativistic symmetry. It turns out that such matter exists. About the time relativity was becoming accepted, studies of radioactivity began showing that the empty vacuum of space had spectroscopic structure similar to that of ordinary quantum solids and fluids. Subsequent studies with large particle accelerators have now led us to understand that space is more like a piece of window glass than ideal Newtonian emptiness. It is filled with “stuff” that is normally transparent but can be made visible by hitting it sufficiently hard to knock out a part. The modern concept of the vacuum of space, confirmed every day by experiment, is a relativistic ether. But we do not call it this because it is taboo." - Laughlin, Robert B. (2005). A Different Universe: Reinventing Physics from the Bottom Down. NY, NY: Basic Books. pp. 120–121. ISBN 978-0-465-03828-2. h/t to Juan Calsiano on Facebook

The Next Generation is Smarter Than We Are. Fortunately.

A few words for all you people who still read physical papers. Still read actual newsprint and can't figure out why those irresponsible young people don't read them. There is nothing wrong with reading your news on a screen, as long as it's accurate information that you are getting. Listening to news on the radio/podcast is also completely fine, as long as what you are getting is the truth. TV news is generally at best a waste of time (Unless you are watching All-In or Rachel Maddow) and at worst an active propaganda agent (FOX or your local TV affiliates owned by Sinclair media) but I also don't know anyone under 30 that watches TV. I don't know anyone under 30 that owns a TV that they don't use almost exclusively for video gaming.


The Economist/Slate The Secret History of the Future: From Zero to Selfie Oct 10, 2018

The Guardian
The reason we have a reality TV star in the presidential office is that old white people went to the polls in greater numbers than anyone else, and they voted for the guy who was the star of The Apprentice a show I'm very proud never to have watched. They still think that is the guy who now sits behind the White House desk. The camera lies. Reality TV is all lies. Every bit of it. Cut the cable and never look back. That's what I've done.

But my children and most of their friends are far more informed than any older person I know, people who are still afraid of the Soviet Union twenty years after it fell. Old people are on Facebook. Ask any younger person and they'll tell you. Facebook is for old people. They aren't getting their information there. They get their information from other sources. Not necessarily better sources than your antique newsprint, but probably sources that are as reliable as they are. So don't fret too hard. I'm sure they'll find a nice home for you to antagonize the nurses at when the time comes. Drink your Ensure and tune in for more Hannity. Just remember he's lying to you. 

A Real Witch Hunt

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I didn't watch the witch hunt that was televised today (Thursday September 28th, 2018) although I have seen several stories in the media telling me how everyone else did watch. That would be their time to waste in watching the execution of a good woman's reputation. I didn't watch just like I didn't watch the debates with the Orange Hate-Monkey. Brett Kavanaugh is lying now, just like the Orange Hate-Monkey (OHM) was lying then. Everyone knows Kavanaugh is lying. They know he is lying because he refused to ask for an FBI investigation when prompted. Repeatedly. So everyone in that Judiciary Committee hearing knew he was lying, but they all have to stick to their scripts.

The Judiciary committee Senate did burn the woman. The professional. The established doctor with a life and reputation of her own on the line. They always burn the woman, or as I said recently, #IBelieveHer and That Still Isn't Enough People.

Do you know how we know that Mueller's investigation isn't a witch hunt? There are no women accused. There are no women accused and the Orange Hate-Monkey is still in office two years later. If the OHM had been a woman, if Hillary Clinton had won the election in 2016, there would already be a high rise built on the spot where her body was burnt eighteen months ago. Because witch hunts come to a speedy conclusion and they inevitably convict innocent people.

I started to watch the debates between Beto O'Rourke and Ted Cruz last week. Ted Cruz was lying before he even got out of his opening comments. What's the point of listening to defacto, demonstrable liars? People who start off lying and never stop lying, playing dirty, blaming others for their behavior? Save yourself some time, spare yourself and the furniture the wear and tear of torment like that. They're lying, they're going to keep lying, so let's get on to the next thing. What is the next thing, you ask? filling the streets of Washington DC with enough people that normal life comes to a standstill until this travesty of a Presidency comes to an end. That has been the next thing that needs doing since January 20, 2017.

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"I wake up every day, right here, right in Punxsutawney, and it's always February 2nd, and there's nothing I can do about it." - Phil Connors, Groundhog Day

LatinoUSA, The Immigrant Woman Who Confronted Senator Flake, Oct. 2, 2018

Gmail Hovercard Doesn't Sort by Address Anymore

Why Google? Why?

Feel free to spam those addresses all you like.
The hovercard doesn't sort by address anymore? Why? That function is perhaps the single, most used function in Gmail. Thousands of people are now screaming at their laptops in frustration. All of those thousands of put-off tasks now immediately requiring attention because you can't find a fucking thing in your inbox easily anymore because you can't isolate the one section of messages you are interested in seeing. Now that mess that you've put off cleaning up for months has to be dealt with, and the raging emergency that sent you in search of that one email that you can't find now because Google changed the interface in Gmail, again, this time for good, and the new interface won't let you isolate the newest, most important messages from that one address without having to manually type it out.

Do you think you will make me empty my inbox by making it harder to find stuff in it? Is that what you are thinking Google? People are not using email anymore because it's such a frustrating mess of things that they just don't want to look at? You think you're going to make me clean my room now, do you Mom? I really don't think you want to get in that fight with me. I've been known to throw out important things, like my favorite software providers, when pressed to do things I don't want to do. I'm going to go play video games now, Google. Let's hope one of us feels like making up when we see each other again. 

Forcing Allegiance Is Fascism

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Lauren McGaughey is reporting on this story for the Dallas Morning News. She says the case stems from a suit filed by parents of a student who was kicked out of school for not standing to recite the pledge. The student and her parents say the school violated her First Amendment rights with that punishment.

“Attorney General Paxton says that it’s a ‘moral good.’ He said, in a statement, that kids learn about citizenship and patriotism from saying the pledge every morning,” McGaughey says.

A First Amendment expert McGaughey talked to says he believes the Texas requirement that students recite the pledge is unconstitutional. - The Texas Standard

The Texas Standard KEN PAXTON INTERVENES IN SUIT FILED BY STUDENT KICKED OUT OF SCHOOL FOR NOT STANDING DURING PLEDGE OF ALLEGIANCE September 26, 2018

Ken Paxton is a Christianist. He wants to force Americans to worship his God. This is a documented fact that anyone can find out for themselves with a simple Google search. A good portion of Texas agrees with him and his fascist views concerning the Freedom of/from Religion guaranteed by the US Constitution. If evil exists, and I am agnostic on the existence of evil; but if evil exists his views and the views of his fellow Christianists are an active evil in the mind of modern America. Ken Paxton should be shunned. He should be rejected at the polls. If you vote for Paxton, you are voting for evil.

I have a distinct opinion on the subject of forcing children to pledge allegiance, as the title of this article and the above paragraph should make abundantly clear. My qualms about the wisdom of making children pledge allegiance before they are old enough to know what words like allegiance mean go back to an early reading of The Children's Story by James Clavell. In that story the children in a generic classroom are introduced to a new teacher sent to them by their new government. That teacher explains the intent behind the words of this pledge they've been forced to recite all their young lives, but the explanation she offers is a lie, and the children are too young and impressionable to know that they are being lied to by an authority figure.

These qualms came to a head when Texas passed a law requiring that children pledge allegiance to the Texas flag as well as the U.S. flag. I received a flyer amongst several other pieces of documentation sent home from school with my children the year this law went into effect, a flyer informing me that Texas law required all students to mouth the words of the United States pledge of allegiance, as well as the then newly revised Texas pledge of allegiance (HB 1034) in addition to observing a moment of silence once each day (SB 83) a practice that intended to re-introduce morning prayer into Texas public schools. The sponsor of HB 1034, when queried on the subject of religion, had this to say (source, Capitol Annex: More HB 1034 Exchanges):
BURNAM: Are you aware that Governor Perry has recently said, “Freedom of religion should not be taken as freedom from religion.” And my question is, do you agree with that statement, Ms. Riddle?
RIDDLE: I would say, Amen.
Which pretty much sums up the intent of the modification of the pledge, and the accompanying minute of silence. It also showed the utter contempt the governor and the majority of the legislature had for anyone who didn't share their particular christian beliefs. Freedom of religion is a meaningless concept unless it includes freedom from religion; requiring someone to have a religion places constraints upon the person, negating any freedom that might be present.

The requirement to recite the two pledges has been on the books since 2003. When they changed the pledge in 2007 they felt they needed to inform parents, once again, of their children's duty to stand and recite the pledges. This prompted me to fire off a letter to the school in response, telling them in no uncertain terms what I thought of their forced indoctrination into religion and what has become a transparent attempt to create an American theocracy.
Dictators and cult leaders require the slaves under their rule to swear allegiance to them, because power is jealous of rivals. In a free society, pledges of allegiance should not be required, because individuals are free of any allegiance other than to rational self interest. Additionally, pledges required of the public are contrary to the sentiments of the founders of the United States, as it reverses the role of the subservient state and places it above We The People.

Obviously, from the tone of this letter, you will be able to discern that I am hereby notifying you in writing that my children will be exempted from this practice. They will not be required to recite any pledges, nor will they be required to observe a minute of silence. This notice is given pro forma, because my children have abstained from reciting the pledges for the entire time that they have attended school; and they have done this without asking me or the omnipotent state for permission to do so. They have remained silent during pledges even in my presence, when I have recited the pledge autonomically; and I applaud them for their strength of will.

If it was possible, I would extend this exemption to any student of AISD, of any school district in Texas, or of any state in the United States, who wished to abstain from reciting the pledge, but lacks the permission that the state requires.
The Religious Right, the Christianist right, have simply become more strident over the years since 2007, not less.  They do not appear to have learned anything from the many battles they have engaged in and lost when it comes to the subject of making the US a christian nation against the will of the majority who like it just the way it is.

Nor is this an issue of socialism versus fascism, the author of the pledge having been a card-carrying Socialist of his timeSocialism itself is not a bad word. Socialism is another in a long list of bogeymen that really should be retired, since the mindset that inspired the pledges and Marxist Dictatorships of the twentieth century now looks as alien to us as most of the other concepts of the time do. However, it does remain fascist to force conformity to any ideology; fascism being the sole surviving ideology that holds up Authoritarianism as a benefit to society. Freedom of conscience requires that we allow people to believe what they want to believe and to act according to their own conscience. That means that allowing people to abstain from reciting the pledge is the least we can do in acknowledgement of their freedom of conscience. Imagine what it would be like if football fans could be reasoned with in this fashion.

The article that included the letter sent to AISD

#IBelieveHer and That Still Isn't Enough People

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You tell me the world has changed much since 1994.

And yet here you are, telling me that we should put that same old mindset, boys will be boys, all boys do it, on the Supreme Court and you know, it's hard for me to see that much of anything has changed at all. - Stonekettle Station on Facebook

I want to tell you a story. No. Scratch that, I need to tell you a story, a story that's needed to be told for quite some time. It's a true story, so I will take a little literary license with the details to masque the identities of those involved; but the story remains true enough that those involved will know the truth of this story. Both the guilty and the innocent will know the truth of this.

It was 40 years ago. A young woman stumbled into a frat party near a  lake. She was naked. Her hair was matted with twigs and dirt. She was half-drowned, very drunk and confused. She said she had escaped from someone trying to kill her. She was raving. She sounded crazy. Someone had snuck up behind her while she was answering the call of nature. A few too many beers, she said. He had raped her, tried to strangle her, and then dumped what he thought was her dead body in the lake. "I'm a good swimmer" she declared, triumphantly.

No one that found her knew who she was. She had been brought to the party by friends from another frat. Just looking at her, you could tell, she had been through some serious trauma. So these benefactors, these people who had no idea who she was, took her to the hospital where it was confirmed that she had been raped by someone. The police were called. Yes, she said. I want to press charges. Yes, she said, I know who it was that raped me and tried to kill me. She gave his name to the police.

...and that was when the trouble started. This young man was well known, a hometown kid. She was a nobody. She had been shipped off to this far-away place because she had gotten pregnant.

Her high school sweetheart had been insisting they should have sex for most of their senior year. They had just graduated. It was time to celebrate, so she finally gave in to his desires and her own. And why not? She wasn't going to be going to the college she wanted. Her parents refused to send her to Europe, to the conservatory that she had a free ride to attend. To Europe, where her musical talents could be properly honed. They refused to buy her a plane ticket, even though they could pay for it. "You can't make a living playing music" they told her. So here she was, in the arms of the man she thought she would marry. There was little else to look forward to, from her perspective.

She wasn't stupid. She knew that she could get pregnant, but she loved him. She thought he loved her, until she found out she was pregnant and told him. Then he disavowed her. He said he'd never had sex with her, so it couldn't be his child. He was going to the college he wanted, after all. He couldn't stay there, get married and raise kids. That just wasn't his plans for his future. Alone and pregnant, she was sent away to live with foster parents. Sent away to a place where none of the friends and family would know of her dirty little secret. The dirty secret that she had been foolish enough to believe a man when he told her he loved her.

She did the right thing. She carried the child to term, because that's what you are supposed to do. She carried the child to term and gave it up for adoption. That was the christian thing to do. Accept your punishment for having sex, and give birth to children you can't afford. Children that you give away to strangers who can afford to raise them for you. She went through all of that, because that was what she was supposed to do.

With the embarrassment of nine months of a belly she didn't want, a child she couldn't keep, couped up with people she barely knew but strangely adopted as parents anyway; with all of that behind her, she set her sights on doing the best with what she had left of her life plans.

She still had her musical talent, even if she wouldn't be touring Europe as part of an orchestra, the role she really was suited for. Her college friends envied her her gift, a natural ear for music and the ability to pick up nearly any instrument and play it well enough to shine in state competitions. But teaching music was the best she could hope for now. She didn't relish the thought of teaching others to play, but if that was the best she could do, that is what she would shoot for.

A few months into her delayed college education, she was invited to that fateful party. Had a little too much to drink. Had the misfortune of needing to relieve herself. Left herself vulnerable to the jealous and the talentless albeit well-liked hometown boy. A hometown boy with a grudge.

Once again, she did the right thing. The thing you are supposed to do. She knew her attacker, even though she was drunk at the time. She knew what he had tried to do to her, had actually thought he had achieved. Thought she was dead when he left her floating in the water. Just another body found washed up on a beach somewhere. A tragic accident. Except it was rape and attempted murder, and you don't let that go unpunished.

She pressed charges against the hometown boy. Faced him in court. Accused him of the crimes that there was far more than sufficient evidence for. He was found not guilty. Why? Because she had done the right thing, over and over. She had yielded to the man she wanted to marry. She had carried the resultant child to birth and given it away. She had shrugged it all off and made the best of what she had left. She had the temerity to stand tall and not be embarrassed by the things society told her were embarrassing. Why should it be embarrassing? Doing the right thing should be praiseworthy. Shouldn't it? Shouldn't it!

"But," they said, "she was a loose woman." This was evident because she had given birth recently. Given birth instead of having an abortion and hiding the evidence of her improprieties, her loose ways. Loose women just want to have sex, and clearly she wanted to have sex with this hometown boy. When he rejected her, she staged the entire scene. Choked herself, tried to drown herself, rolled around in the dirt, naked, and threw herself on unsuspecting strangers in order to malign the hometown boy. Who was the court to believe? This loose woman, spirited away from her family and friends in order to save their reputations? Or should the court believe this fine, upstanding hometown boy who, while musically talentless, was still a handsome young man with a promising future? Who indeed?

Who indeed? Not guilty. Case dismissed. Free as a bird, he flew. Still flies. As I said, a true story. True enough, anyway.

So when I read stories about "why didn't they come forward?" In the news these days, news about high profile judges and corporate leaders and politicians galore, men of high stature accused of the wrongs that they've hidden in plain sight until finally some woman has had enough that she just won't take it anymore and risks everything to shine the light of justice on these loathsome individuals, I don't even have to ask "why don't they come forward?" I know why. They didn't come forward before, and most of them will not come forward now because they won't be believed. As the latest accusations about Brett Kavanaugh circulate, while the Pussy Grabber-in-Chief defends him, and the same old song and dance plays out. Just like it always has. These women are not believed by far, far too many people. It's too convenient not to believe if believing means you have to change who and what you think is right in the world.

Equilibrium on the Equinox

David Gerrold on Facebook
What happens on September 22nd? I think to myself as I start looking through today's history on Facebook. It's bugging me. This day is important. There is an event that occurs today, what is it?

Obviously, it is the equinox. It took a bit of googling to turn the lights on, but finally, I had my answer. That is the significance of September 22nd. Equinox. Equal amounts of day and night across the globe.
Most years, this happens on either Sept. 22 or 23. However, every once in a while, the autumn equinox can occur on Sept. 21 or 24. This happens because the length of a calendar year (365 days) is not equal to the time it takes for Earth to travel around the sun (365.25 days). To make up for this inconsistency, people have observed "leap years" for the last two millennia. By adding a "leap day" (Feb. 29) to the calendar every four years, we have managed to keep our seasons more or less consistent from year to year.

The last time the autumnal equinox fell on Sept. 21 was over a thousand years ago, and the last Sept. 24 equinox was in 1931, according to timeanddate.com. While it's been a long time since the equinox occurred on Sept. 21, we can expect to see it happen twice in the next century, first in 2092 and then in 2096. The next Sept. 24 equinox will be in the year 2303. (Keep in mind that these dates are based on Universal Time, so some time zones may not experience these equinoxes on the dates listed here.)
 - Space.com Autumnal Equinox Not the Same Day Every Year
Equinox. Equilibrium. Balance. I've been feeling pretty unequal for about a month now. Unbalanced. The Meniere's has been particularly burdensome since sometime in mid-august when the left ear started to flare up again. There has been a near-constant feeling of pressure in the ear for the last month. The pressure started a bit early this year for me, and it has lasted longer and been more annoying. But then this is the beginning of fall and it's accompanying seasonal allergies. I just got my annual symptoms a little early this year, I guess.

Along with the pressure have been long bouts of hyperacusis and/or painful tinnitus. I can't hear, I'm uncomfortable, I feel ill as if I have an infection. I went to the ENT yesterday just to reassure myself that I wasn't actually ill. Nope. Not ill, just Meniere's. This feeling of malaise has lasted for a solid month, almost without respite.

Which is why there is a dog hugging a goat at the top of this post. Denied physical balance I will seek mental balance. Calmness where I can find it. Lacking medical treatment to alleviate the symptoms of Meniere's, I will simply endure it for as long as it takes. I see a lot of World of Warcraft in my future.



So I woke up this afternoon with vertigo again. This is the third day in a row (10/22/2018) I have woken up with rotational vertigo. The third day in a row where I wake up and quickly drug myself. Take meclizine. Add Xanax if necessary. Stare at the screen in front of me for hours at a time. Try not to shift the focus of my vision because that always causes a little bit of spin until the new focus point is established. Lovely. Just lovely. This bout of vertigo is just the latest part of the symptomatic spell that started mid-August for me. This makes it a pretty solid two months of being severely symptomatic.

The vertigo spell finally ended on Wednesday the 25th. I celebrated by getting out of the house for the first time in a week and treating myself to an All Star Special at the Waffle House. Since Austin has established a Boil-Water Mandate in response to the record breaking rainfall on the Llano Estacado, and the subsequent flooding of the highland lakes including Lake Travis, the lake that provides Austin's water, the choice of places to go was rather limited. When a restaurant can't use the water that comes out of the taps to make the food they sell, most restaurants will simply close when there is no visible demand for their services.

But the Waffle House is always open if they can turn the lights on and fire up the griddle. That is why there is a Waffle House index for disasters. It was a yellow day, plastic tableware and a limited menu, but I would have gone to the Waffle House anyway. Love the coffee, even if it has to be decaf these days. I have to have hashbrowns and eggs over easy, too. My goto breakfast for those days when just waking up is a good thing.

Being symptomatic, when you have a chronic illness like Meniere's, is not a contest to be won. You don't get brownie points for suffering more than the next guy, because the next guy's goal is the same as yours. That goal is getting through the bad days so that you can enjoy the good ones. If your good days don't happen often enough, maybe you should change the things you are doing, or the treatments you are using, and see if you can't get yourself more good days. Since there is no cure, and you won't die from it (ergo chronic illness) the only metric available to you is the number of days in a row where you wake up glad to still be here. Today was one of those days. I had waffles, and I got out of the house. Looking forward to the next good day, now. If only the pressure in the left ear would ease off. That would be great. 

McConnell's Hypocrisy

A woman has accused a Supreme Court nominee of drunkenly pinning her to a bed, groping her and covering her mouth when she screamed. She has provided therapist notes from well before the nominee was a public figure. She has taken a polygraph test. She is willing to undergo an FBI investigation and testify under oath before the Senate. The man in question has been nominated to a lifetime appointment on the highest court in the land, where he will be interpreting the Constitution, and is likely to be the key vote for overturning a woman’s right to choose.

Yet at today’s conference for social conservatives, the Senate's Majority Leader said none of this matters: “In the very near future, Judge Kavanaugh will be on the U.S. Supreme Court. So, my friends, keep the faith. Don’t get rattled by all this. We’re going to plow right through it and do our job.”

Plow right through? I hope every woman (and man) in America is paying attention to this, and votes accordingly on November 6th. Your view?  - Robert Reich on Facebook
McConnell should be convicted for his crimes, his breaches of professional ethics. In 2008 when he set the Republicans to oppose everything Obama proposed, he should have been censored, right then and there. But instead of punishing him for his malfeasance, the Republicans doubled down and doubled down again, and then again, until we get to this impasse we are in now.

After all of their racism directed at Barack Obama. After all of their hypocrisy decrying programs they supported before Obama and Clinton before him proposed and passed them. After all their backstabbing and double-dealing to get their way. Denying Merrick Garland, President Obama's SCOTUS nominee, any hearing for a year. Forcing the entire nation to wait a year with an evenly divided Supreme Court, just so that they could use the 2016 general election as a referendum. They are now caught in their last act of criminality, if not their last act of hypocrisy. They have someone they want on the Supreme Court. Someone that they know is their last chance. Their last chance to get a conservative on the court before the tide turns against them, and they won't give up this guy no matter how much loathsome activity is dug up about him. None of it matters to them.

Why would it? They voted for and then willingly followed a guy who bragged about being able to commit murder in broad daylight in front of witnesses and not lose a single vote. They still support this weasel of a man, this Orange Hate-Monkey. They have no conscience, no honor. They have nothing left but obedience to their leader, obedience that should cost them their very souls. It won't because they'll skate away just like the wealthy criminals that they are. I have no sympathy for craven people like that. A pox on all their houses.

...I will never vote for a Republican again. Never.

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Wrong Again. Why am I Not Surprised?

Robert Reich & Facebook
On this day in 2015, Robert Reich started his status about the Orange Hate-Monkey (OHM) with this gloomy paragraph,
Donald Trump is leading all other Republican candidates -- not just in polls but also, according to Google Trends, in Google searches. This could push Trump even higher in Google’s search rankings, and such higher rankings would in turn bring him even more support.
He went on to prophesy that the OHM could well win the presidential race based on Google's skewing of the preferences of Americans through their use of specific algorithms to produce search results. At the time, I was completely oblivious to the structural problem in the internet's construction, the bias that serving us more of what we wanted to see lent confirmation to the beliefs that we operate under on a day to day basis. This fact alone probably explains why I thought Hillary would win (she did win, but not where it counted) Google served me results that confirmed my bias, masquing the discontent that was felt by far more people than I ever suspected. Felt most especially in three key states that squeaked out a lead for the OHM in the Electoral College. My response three years ago was,
Donald Trump is and will always be a three time loser. In order to be this at running for President, he will have to run one more time after he loses this bid. I encourage him to stick with it. I would like to be right in a prediction for once. In the meantime Bill and Opus for President 2016.
Berkeley Breathed's Bloom County
Sadly, Bill and Opus did not win, although the brain that briefly inhabited Bill the Cat's body did apparently get enough electoral votes to become president. The conspiracy that aliens are controlling the OHM remotely remains a distinct possibility, however, since the brain of Donald Trump has never been found after it left Bill's head.

Looking back at my utter cluelessness as to just how ready nearly half the US voting population was, willing to watch the entire place burn rather than vote for Hillary Clinton, makes me wonder just how much of that ire is Facebook and Google's fault? How much of my cluelessness is the fault of their algorithms and how much is my own desire to see the United States continue in some recognizable form?


HIDDEN BRAIN Voting With A Middle Finger: Two Views On The White Working Class October 15, 2018

No matter what the answer is, the America that emerges from under the OHM's attempted dictatorship will be a different America than went into it. That much is certain. It is certain because America has already changed under the OHM's naked propagandizing, suppression of the government's regulatory ability, disregard for disaster relief, etcetera, etcetera, ad nauseum. Whether that change is for the better or the worse will be determined this November. I'll see you all at the polls.

The Fallout from 2008?

September 19th's Indicator from Planet Money turned out not to be too surprising to me.


THE INDICATOR The Psychological Effects Of The Financial Crisis, Lingering September 19, 2018
It is not only in the housing market and mortgage market where we observe these effects. Take the stock market. Financial crisis clearly affected returns to your personal portfolio. And our calculations suggest that a person who was about 30 when, say, in 2008 the financial crisis hit will drastically reduce her inclination to be a stock market participant. And it will take about 30 years until this effect is not detectable anymore in the data.
As if 2008 was the only crash Americans who are alive today have been through. I remember black Monday. Even though I remembered that crash, I still stupidly invested in the stock market in the 1990's. That lead to my being caught up in the .com crash. It infuriates me that they call that crash a bubble, as if it was self-revelatory that the markets would crash that time, when in fact there was no more warning that the whole market would reset that time any more than there is warning any other time the markets crash. There are only warnings if you are paying attention to the details. If you have enough money to pay people to mind the details for you.

BBC Business Daily
There were warning lights all over the boards in 2007 leading into 2008. Ask any of the analysts featured in The Big Short, if any of them will talk to you. The real estate bubble not only didn't fully deflate after the slaughtering started on September 14th of 2008; not only did it not fully deflate, the same people who cashed in before the last crash are already re-inflating that bubble to make more money off of it. And so it goes, round and round and round. Inflate. Short and deflate. Rinse and repeat. For the the wealthiest 1% it is just a game. They have money to burn and if they lose a few millions here, a billion there, what do they care? It passes the time. So what if a few of the little fish jump out of windows or die in poverty?

I will never invest in the stock market again. That is what I learned dabbling in the stock market. Investing is for wealthy people and I will never be wealthy. The markets are rigged to favor the wealthy, this is patently obvious. Insider trading gets you a slap on the wrist, and that's what the wealthy do. They exploit information asymmetry, one of the baseline benefits of wealth, the ability to buy the latest information and the best people to make that information tell you what you need to know. Most Americans, most people, will never be wealthy. It is time Americans learned this lesson and structured their society accordingly.

Most of them, most of us, will die poor. We have the ability to make poverty something other than a slow, miserable death sentence. If we're smart we'll set that system up, replacing the one we have now. 

What Trump Can Teach Us About Constitutional Law

Trumpconlaw.com
This has been one of the most illuminating podcasts I've heard on the subject of the Orange Hate-Monkey (OHM) and his near-daily flirtations with destroying everything we Americans hold dear. I have taken the time to create a tweet for each episode, putting the wordage on low heat and letting it simmer till it is reduced to its defining 280 characters. I present them here in all their minimalist glory.

I embarked upon this task because I knew I would be posting links to these podcasts, repeatedly. I wanted to be able to explain why the #MAGA, Misguided Appallingly Gullible Americans, were wrong about whatever lie their OHM had poured in their ears most recently. Most of these Tweets have come in handy more than once; so I figured, why not share them?
https://trumpconlaw.com/1-judicial-legitimacy ...Or "Why does the president have to listen to what the courts say?" - What Trump Can Teach Us About Con Law - for any #MAGA out there. You know who you are.
https://trumpconlaw.com/2-the-appointments-clause-and-removal-power ...Or "Even if a president has the constitutional power to fire someone, it doesn’t mean there aren’t political and legal consequences of the action." - What Trump Can Teach Us About Con Law - for any #MAGA out there. You know who you are.

https://trumpconlaw.com/3-pardon-power ...Or "Can Trump pardon someone with a tweet?" - What Trump Can Teach Us About Con Law - for any #MAGA out there. You know who you are.

https://trumpconlaw.com/4-the-spending-clause ...Or "Trump threatened to withhold federal money from any place acting as a 'sanctuary city'. When it comes to the Spending Clause, how coercive is too coercive?" - What Trump Can Teach Us About Con Law - for any #MAGA out there. You know who you are.

https://trumpconlaw.com/5-presidential-immunity ...Or "President Trump claims he cannot be sued in civil court. The Supreme Court has something to say about this." - What Trump Can Teach Us About Con Law - for any #MAGA out there. You know who you are.

https://trumpconlaw.com/6-the-emoluments-clauses ...Or "There are two clauses that bar Presidents from accepting gifts from anyone without congressional approval, and no case law to backup an opinion. We have one anyway." - What Trump Can Teach Us About Con Law - for any #MAGA out there. You know who you are.

https://trumpconlaw.com/7-recess-appointment-power ...Or "Does the president have to wait until the Senate is in session to appoint important executive positions?" - What Trump Can Teach Us About Con Law - for any #MAGA out there. You know who you are.

https://trumpconlaw.com/8-the-takings-clause ...Or "To build a wall, Trump is going to need to seize private land. The Constitution has something to say about that." - What Trump Can Teach Us About Con Law - for any #MAGA out there. You know who you are.

https://trumpconlaw.com/9-commerce-clause ...Or "There are limits on the kinds of laws Congress can pass, and the executive branch can choose how to enforce those laws. Drug laws, derived from the Commerce Clause, are about to be enforced very differently." - What Trump Can Teach Us About Con Law - for any #MAGA out there. You know who you are.

https://trumpconlaw.com/10-impeachment ...Or "Impeachment is the emergency measure written into the constitution itself. We talk about the procedure of impeachment and why it's so hard to get done." - What Trump Can Teach Us About Con Law - for any #MAGA out there. You know who you are.

https://trumpconlaw.com/11-war-powers ...Or "The President can't declare war on Korea only Congress can, and Congress hasn't used that power since 1941. So what about the biscuit and the football?" - What Trump Can Teach Us About Con Law - for any #MAGA out there. You know who you are.

https://trumpconlaw.com/12-right-to-dissent ...Or "The US has a rich history of public dissent, a right guaranteed by the Constitution. But you’d be surprised to learn that the Supreme Court has taken drastically different stands on this right." - What Trump Can Teach Us About Con Law - for any #MAGA out there. You know who you are.

https://trumpconlaw.com/13-criminal-justice-and-the-potus …Or “Presidents don’t usually weigh in on criminal cases. The integrity of the criminal justice system requires that the executive not influence cases. But Trump can’t help himself.” - What Trump Can Teach Us About Con Law - for any #MAGA out there. You know who you are.

https://trumpconlaw.com/14-prosecuting-a-president ...Or "Two Vice Presidents have been indicted with criminal charges while serving in office, but does the Constitution allow the prosecution of a President?" - What Trump Can Teach Us About Con Law - for any #MAGA out there. You know who you are.

https://trumpconlaw.com/15-challenge-coin ...Or "December 22, 2017, the day the world first saw the redesigned Presidential Challenge Coin. This episode might be just for people who obsess about coinage. Or maybe not."  - What Trump Can Teach Us About Con Law - for any #MAGA out there. You know who you are.

https://trumpconlaw.com/16-defamation ...or "Trump likes to threaten the press with libel lawsuits. What does the Constitution have to say about defamation and the press?"  - What Trump Can Teach Us About Con Law - for any #MAGA out there. You know who you are.

https://trumpconlaw.com/17-the-fourth-amendment-and-the-border ...Or "On the border the Fourth Amendment protections against searches and seizures don't exist. President Trump likes it this way."  - What Trump Can Teach Us About Con Law - for any #MAGA out there. You know who you are.

https://trumpconlaw.com/18-the-tenth-amendment ...Or "The Tenth Amendment limits the federal government’s control over the states, but the interpretation of that limit is always shifting." - @trumpconlaw - for any #MAGA out there. You know who you are.

https://trumpconlaw.com/19-the-poisonous-tree  ...or "The Russia investigation witch hunt and the fruit of the poisonous tree" - What Trump Can Teach Us About Con Law - for any #MAGA out there. You know who you are.

https://trumpconlaw.com/20-deadly-force …or “The Fourth Amendment includes the right to be secure from ‘unreasonable searches and seizure.’ Will teachers be like cops if they are empowered to carry guns in school?” - What Trump Can Teach Us About Con Law - for any #MAGA out there. You know who you are.

https://trumpconlaw.com/21-attorney-client-privilege ...or "When the office of Trump’s personal lawyer, Michael Cohen, was raided by the FBI, Trump took twitter to express his concern. He wrote “Attorney-client privilege is dead!” Let’s see if it is." - @trumpconlaw - for any #MAGA out there. You know who you are.

https://trumpconlaw.com/22-posse-comitatus ...or "The exceptions to the Posse Comitatus Act almost make it violation proof. Trump suggesting 'The Feds' should police Chicago might be the perfect example of a potential violation." - @trumpconlaw - for any #MAGA out there. You know who you are.

https://trumpconlaw.com/23-president-twitter-and-the-first-amendment ...or "Can Trump block people on Twitter? It turns out, the First Amendment has something to say about that." - What Trump Can Teach Us About Con Law - for any #MAGA out there. You know who you are.

https://trumpconlaw.com/24-taking-the-fifth ...or "Are people who plead the fifth guilty? No. Here's why." - What Trump Can Teach Us About Con Law - for any #MAGA out there. You know who you are.

https://trumpconlaw.com/25-justice-kennedy ...or "Justice Kennedy was appointed by Reagan, why are liberals so concerned?" - What Trump Can Teach Us About Con Law - for any #MAGA out there. You know who you are.

https://trumpconlaw.com/26-roe …or “Trump’s second SCOTUS pick has people wondering about the future of Roe v. Wade. We look at the constitutional basis of the decision and the strange personal history of Roe.” - What Trump Can Teach Us About Con Law - for any #MAGA out there. You know who you are.

https://trumpconlaw.com/27-treason  ...or "When Trump tweets just the single word Treason, is he using that word correctly? What does our federal Constitution say about treason and when does someone commit a treasonous act?" - @trumpconlaw - for any #MAGA out there. You know who you are.



Trumpconlaw is another podcast hosted by Roman Mars of 99% Invisible fame. I am currently working my way through that show's archive. Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever make it all the way through, but hope springs eternal. 99% Invisible is undoubtedly one of the best designed websites in existence. All of Roman Mars' podcasts and the podcasts that are presented through his distribution group, Radiotopia, are among the few podcasts out there that are easily shareable; easily shareable because the link to the hosting website is actually referenced in the feed address for the podcast you are listening to. I remain baffled as to why more podcasts do not design their feeds to be easily accessible in this way. In any case, give some of these podcasts a listen. It will take your mind off of the impending doom looming over the US today.

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